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[honeymonster]

I just want to live. Since October 4, 1996, I haven't, really. Some of it is not being able to and some.. some is my own fear. Why do you think most of my posts are about books and movies and television? The last time I felt real and vital and alive I was with Bill. I guess that's what I'm missing..something that happened years ago.

I'm lonely and I'm scared. Get in line, right?