Oct. 16th, 2017 09:05 am
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Hi! It's nearly the anniversary of my dad's death.

My brother and I have started The Lasagna Project: http://theahole.tumblr.com/tagged/lasagna-project

Going back to bed now.


Aug. 7th, 2017 06:21 pm
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Hi, I'm in a bad mood and I'm mad at myself about it.


Aug. 5th, 2017 08:06 pm
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I can't get to photobucket, so here's a link to the thrilling saga of Cakezilla.

And I posted a coloring book page I colored on a different blog, but that won't load, so here: https://comicssanscontext.tumblr.com/
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My computer got borked when my virus protection updated, so I can't go to more than half the websites I use every day.

I've been told I can use my dad's computer, but only when the old table I use gets moved up to my room, and nobody seems to be in a hurry to do that.

Anyway, just took my birthday cake out of the oven and am waiting for it to cool off so I can frost it. Gonna be 43 tomorrow. Gad.
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I don't know whether it's more depressing or funny:

In a chat, watching a baking show. I want to know how to get someone to bake me a charlotte russe. I think that's what it was. Money is suggested, and seduction. I point out that I'm poor and look like the blob. I get the self-esteem lecture.

I direct them to a recent photo of me, and get "you look fine" and "you have happy eyes" and a change of subject.

I guess it's kind of both.


Jun. 24th, 2017 10:43 pm
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So I need some lighting (been lighting my bedroom with one desk lamp since.. well, for at least a decade) and it turns out finding lamps online is a pain in the ass, even on amazon.

Also today a family friend came in with a shop-vac and significantly improved the look of my bedroom. Hopefully soon I will have a real bed once again.
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Best thing of last week: Library sale

Worst thing: trying to vacuum 20 years of ground-in hair and dust off my bedroom floor with a vacuum that keeps clogging.

I hesitate to say the dreams have stopped, because I know they will start right up again if I do.


Jun. 4th, 2017 06:00 pm
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Can't stop dreaming that my dad is still alive. And I'd REALLY like to, because waking up is a real nightmare.

I just want to sleep all the time.


May. 27th, 2017 01:34 am
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First round of antibiotics didn't work. Still sick.

And apparently there is no point in time on this hell orb when I can get more than one hour of sleep without being awakened by one of the demons I live with. Fuckin' sofa.


May. 16th, 2017 11:52 am
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I am really sick, so bad I can't use the CPAP machine, and I was on the phone for almost 3 hours this morning trying to get ahold of the doctor's office.

I no longer have a bed, so I'm sleeping on the fucking sofa. And I'm pretty much shit out of luck when it comes to finding food with no dairy in it, which I need because dairy makes more snot.

The last 24 hours I've been living on dried fruit and egg noodles w/ butter & Thai peanut sauce.

So I'm sick, sleep-deprived and depressed.
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Cleaning all the garbage out of my room, and it is almost bare. Problem is, I found some old letters and read them.

That was a bad idea.

Now I'm depressed and thinking too much about the fact that the last time someone touched me sexually was in 1998, and our relationship fell apart for a lot of reasons, the main ones being distances and the fact he wasn't attracted to me.

The latter was the biggie, I think.

It's really depressing to realize a whole relationship is a thought experiment.


Apr. 13th, 2017 01:39 am
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Hi, it's 1:39 in the morning, I can't sleep and I am sad.

How are you?

Hi there!

Apr. 4th, 2017 09:44 pm
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Is this thing on?


Apr. 4th, 2017 05:44 pm
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I'm moving to dreamwidth soon because of the new privacy policy. Doing my book blog first, though.
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Whenever I feel insecure about the smut I'm writing, I go read something on literotica.com.

Then I still feel bad, but not about my writing.


Feb. 12th, 2017 11:45 pm
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Had a dream that my father came home, and when he saw all the food, he was like "What is this shit doing in my house?"

And we had to explain that we did not expect him to come home, because he was dead.
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More important than my sad case of the horn is that the What the Fuck Am I Watching? podcast now has its own youtube channel. I've linked you to the video version of their review of Neil Breen's new movie.

Damn, I miss their stupid faces.
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Recently I dug all of my old journals out and put them in a big plastic box. I also photographed every single one of them.

27 years worth.

But I made the mistake of reading some of them, and now I am experiencing Feelings again.

Also Horniness.

I don't like it.

I am Sad and A Mess.

And Horny.
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when the "parental discretion is advised" thing comes up while I'm watching TV
trying to remember how to make pie crust
various things I see in the supermarket
we need to find a new home for the snake
stand-up comedy
jigsaw puzzles


Oct. 29th, 2016 03:34 pm
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I actually feel a little better today, except for one thing.

When he was hugging me, my Uncle Terry touched my boob.

The first time, I kind of dismissed it.

But the second time, he waited until I was alone at my table at lunch, told me his wife wanted me to hug me, and then, his hand LINGERED. Shit, he practically palmed that fatbag.

I feel gross. I'm pretty sure his wife didn't tall him to also join the Touched a Booby Club.

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