Why I chew my nails, by Honey
Dec. 8th, 2003 11:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
honeymonsterThere are things that I have to face, that I don't want to face, that winter makes painfully clear.
Like that I can't shovel a driveway or a sidewalk, no matter how much I may want to. Physical impossibility.
Like falling down is not only a potential embarrassment, but a potential bone broken in a way that can't be fixed this time.
Snow is beautiful but the practicalities of it are ugly. And ice is just fucking scary.
Just another little notice to my ego that I can never be truly independent again.
I want my life back.
Like that I can't shovel a driveway or a sidewalk, no matter how much I may want to. Physical impossibility.
Like falling down is not only a potential embarrassment, but a potential bone broken in a way that can't be fixed this time.
Snow is beautiful but the practicalities of it are ugly. And ice is just fucking scary.
Just another little notice to my ego that I can never be truly independent again.
I want my life back.
