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honeymonsterJust need to get this out of my head.
Okay.. I am not really into the S&M thing, or spanking, or whatever. I don't care if you are, just don't tell me about it because I hate pain, and sometimes the stories makes me physically ill.
So of course I've been poking at this scab, and I've found that I can stand the idea of hitting someone I don't know to get them off. I might even enjoy doing it myself. Of course, I might hit a little harder then the person actually wanted, because I am probably sickened by violence due to my own sadistic streak. But anyway, if I knew the person I couldn't do it. My brain will NOT associate pain with love. And if I disliked or was angry with the person I might really do damage, and I couldn't stand that.
Okay.. I am not really into the S&M thing, or spanking, or whatever. I don't care if you are, just don't tell me about it because I hate pain, and sometimes the stories makes me physically ill.
So of course I've been poking at this scab, and I've found that I can stand the idea of hitting someone I don't know to get them off. I might even enjoy doing it myself. Of course, I might hit a little harder then the person actually wanted, because I am probably sickened by violence due to my own sadistic streak. But anyway, if I knew the person I couldn't do it. My brain will NOT associate pain with love. And if I disliked or was angry with the person I might really do damage, and I couldn't stand that.
