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Sometimes, looking back, I think what I did was like marrying simply in order to get laid. What if I'd waited, cleaved to complexities? Fat chance. I'd fallen madly for a gender.

--Jan Clausen
Apples and Oranges

So.. umm.. okay..

I am looking at moving my goddess campaign (the one I inherited from Tamika) to freespeech with my other ones, because xoom/nbci blows big chunks lately. The problem will be uploading all that junk again.. trying to get into my account to post a redirect will also be a hassle.. and then there's the fact that if I'm going to all that trouble anyway, I'm simply going to HAVE to redesign the main page.. kill me.

I'm binding books again.. Made a cute one just for me that I may scan later.. there's an all-green one in the works, and I am making a sketchbook and a smaller book for my big brother's birthday presents.. I wish he or his wife would return my damn phone call, because I still have no idea what colors to use. Arrgh.

ooga booga

That's gonna be my next diary. It has black pages. You can see the problems I've been having with wrapping paper pretty clearly in this scan. Also, I've been having a hell of a time with that particular bookcloth. But it's cute, and I like it. The two stickers are there because the stupid paper had ripped white spots.

I have a stack of books and I'm having trouble deciding what to read next. I can think of worse problems..

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I had the spiffiest dream this morning, so I woke up in a good mood.

I keep planning for when I get my own place.. how I want it to look and everything. I know it's going to have to be lined with bookshelves just everywhere. I have some posters of paintings already picked out, though I want a Georgia O'Keeffe one too.. plus I have other posters.. There's a JTHM one I bought years and years ago (I'm not allowed posters in my current bedroom), a Tori one Jeffrey sent me, the one for Thinner Steve got me from the video store a few years ago, the one the kids got my for my birthday this year (Peace Frogs angel), and the one my father got me a little while ago. And I may be missing one. Ack! Also, I know I want a cat and a White's tree frog. Along with all of this hopeful planning is the dread, of course. There are some things I simply can't do, and others I will have to figure out before I move. And it's not like I'll have a chance to get out until at least next year.. Still, it's fun to daydream about it.

dammit

This evening, it suddenly hit me how much I miss kissing.

Fucking arrgh.