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[honeymonster]

I am
not coping so well today
nerves are singing
like the cat
endless and meaningless
well did you ever
somebody told me, they said
this would happen
I knew it too, but I let it
'cause I always err on the risky side
so I'm always getting burned
even digging up the lies I ignored
don't wanna believe it
and everything hurts so
I will medicate and not feel better
I will
sing to myself out of tune
I will hold my teddy bear and
tell him I love him
who said I had nothing left to lose?