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honeymonsterIt's that stage of night where depression creeps in and says, "Howdy! You're worthless and I'm here to remind you why!"
I wish I made friends easily. Or that I could keep them. There are so many people in my life who decided to simply fade away.. I didn't even notice until they'd been gone a while. Of course, there are also the ones I chose to cut myself off from. I admit that. Sometimes you realize that things are only going to get worse. Sometimes it's just self-preservation.
I worry about LJ friends. Do you read this 'cause you feel you have to? Do I ever interest you, or am I just another thing on your friends list? I care about all of you, or you wouldn't be on my list. When people quit updating or stop making sense to me or were just added on a whim and my mind changed.. well.. shit happens.
Sometimes I think I do this just to be sure I exist. The way my life has been, it gets hard to tell.
You know, this mood is probably caused by eating almost nothing but cookies all day.. I'm probably just crashing. Thanks for taking the time to read this.. I'm off to find something to eat.. I think..
I wish I made friends easily. Or that I could keep them. There are so many people in my life who decided to simply fade away.. I didn't even notice until they'd been gone a while. Of course, there are also the ones I chose to cut myself off from. I admit that. Sometimes you realize that things are only going to get worse. Sometimes it's just self-preservation.
I worry about LJ friends. Do you read this 'cause you feel you have to? Do I ever interest you, or am I just another thing on your friends list? I care about all of you, or you wouldn't be on my list. When people quit updating or stop making sense to me or were just added on a whim and my mind changed.. well.. shit happens.
Sometimes I think I do this just to be sure I exist. The way my life has been, it gets hard to tell.
You know, this mood is probably caused by eating almost nothing but cookies all day.. I'm probably just crashing. Thanks for taking the time to read this.. I'm off to find something to eat.. I think..
