honeymonster | (no subject)

A cute boy loved me once. I think. I don't expect it to happen again.. yet I do. Lightning does strike in the same place. Lookit the Empire State building. I know right now my life and my emotions are too fucked for another relationship. I think I really freaked someone out last time I was in a situation like this.

I like women. I don't get along with them very well. No good female role models. I'd like a girlfriend.. but again.. don't know how to go about getting one. Don't know much about any woman but me.

I want to write more poetry. I don't want to drown in the hopelessness of my life if I can't even get any writing out of it. The last one I wrote was inspired by the credits of Almost Famous.

I hope I get out of this house one day. I want a kitten that I can watch grow up into a fat and happy cat. I want to see if I can take care of myself for real.

I need to eat dinner so that I can take my pills. But I'm not very hungry. Guess it can wait..