honeymonster | personal crisis, folks.. skip if you will

So I think that maybe if I wasn't on Paxil I would be suicidal again. You know, until a couple of years ago, I'd never felt this low. But here I am again.

Reasons? I got reasons.

I have no-one to talk to in person. My frinds are all online or people I don't write to nearly enough.

I have no job, no money, no prospects.

No love life. No sex.

I hardly ever get to see my nieces and nephew, and the vibe between me and their parents is weird anyway.

I hurt every single day. I have pain and problems that not only will never go away, but are positively guaranteed to get worse.

I don't have any purpose.

I can only get out of the house with someone else.

The high point of my day is usually quality time with the cat.

I can't write because I never do anything.

and so forth..